Pain of Loss

The day you were cut me from your life,

I felt a deep, unhealed gash.

There were no reasons,

No warnings,

It came out of the blue.

I ask myself the same questions,

What did I do wrong?

How did I screw up?

Where were the warnings I did not see?

I try to find a way to mend this broken bridge,

But all the king’s horses & all the king’s men,

Didn’t want to fix this broken heart again.

And do I end up not making the same mistake?

To keep fighting windmills,

Only end up being the giant?

This pain, I blame no one but me,

As it should?

But how can I learn from this?

How could make the same mistake?

Especially from someone who went thru this place,

In the world of Cupid all by himself?

Is it like Operation,

Touch the side to get a buzzing loss?

For all you have done,

I feel the effects.

My innocence is gone,

My trust is gone.

I try to repeat the moment,

But the world is too cold.

I try to move on,

But I am afraid to hit spikes.

I want to you to forgive me,

I want to give my soul to that.

If you don’t want to give me anything,

Just tell me where I went wrong,

So I won;’t do the same thing that hurt you.

One Year

One year,

Second sight,

Am I so known?

As I walk down a hall expecting the unexpected,

I felt a welcome as warm as a visit during the holidays.

I never expected you

Life is a surprise,

But the surprise I got was the warmest I ever received.

As I gave my Christmas card,

And did an old man joke,

I felt I did what I was to do.

This was your time,

Their time,

Their need.

All I was was a poor fool,

Looking for kindness.

I was a serf standing next to an idol.

But then like Jericho,

“Take the Walls Down!”

“Baby, It’s Cold Outside...”

I never felt so welcome,

I never felt so human.

We talked your shop,

We talked mine.

We had a bigger respect for one another.

For something that was a glimpse,

It was like a date.

You were no longer a celebrity,

You were a hero.

The way I responded,

Was like a person in poverty giving thanks.

I gave everything, but not all.

It looked lame,

But it felt beautiful.

And that moment was the first time I felt human,

The first time I felt wanted.

The first time I felt loved.

I try recreating it,

But it is like a snowflake.

No two are alike.

But my snowflake,

It’s Rembrandt.

The Best Thing Ever

For the first time I see hope,

I see God’s love in its true form.

Kindness, beauty, and joy.

For everyday is a day more brighter.

I am blessed that you are the sun.

For your hug gives me warmth.

And your smile makes thing clear.

Thank you.

You Are Somebody

When people treat you like crap,

Remember that you are somebody.

When work feels like everything is wrong,

Remember that you are somebody.

When an enemy’s whining gets in the way of logic,

Remember that you are somebody.

When you lose that somebody special,

Remember that you are somebody.

You are a person.

You have a heart.

You are loved,

And there are people there that love you.

Even in this crazy world,

Remember your are that one piece of that puzzle,

And every piece is important.

So the next time you feel like the world is hurting you,

Put the crown on your head,

Put the cape on you back,

And be ready to face the world.

Because you are somebody.

To Be Not Hungry

For I have not seen food for weeks,

Am poor in body and spirit.

I see the promised receive their gifts,

And as thou I may ask,

I fear they see me as a mosquito or knat,

Not the maiden.

Even when I ask,

I am told they have nothing,

A lie that makes them feels as thou have too little.

For I know I cannot be hungry,

To show fear, to cower, to grovel

Will not get me closer to the Promised Land.

As my head is heavy from pain I shall rise.

For when their heartless souls will not give,

My strength and inner pride

Will make them admire who I am.

And they will see me as royalty,

To earn my respect.

My time will come.

All I have to do is wait.

You Don't Have to be Perfect

You look so amazing,

You work so hard,

You are so nice.

Don't worry about being perfect.

Don't worry about trying to outshine others.

Don't worry about minor flaws.

You will always be the same way as we first met.

You will always be a princess forever in my eyes.

A Fighter's Friend

As I come from a battle,

Whether it be against one or one million.

Whether I face heights the size of the tallest building.

Whether I come from a battle where people see me as the devil himself.

At least I have you my friend by my side.

Giving me optimism,

Giving me warmth,

Showing me that no matter what the odds,

To you I'm the greatest hero ever.

For that I say these words,

Thank you.